01/19/98 well,usually i go on a diet every monday,i guess i can cross that off my "to-do" list since i have been officially starving for more than a month, i have been "grazing" no pun intended....i will have a couple of slim fast,and then have the balance of the calories spread out from 2-7pm.....it is working well so far.if only i could overcome my exercise phobia....
01/20/98
I GOTTA GET A LIFE........
01/21/98 PATIENCE...I GOTTA LEARN TO BE PATIENT......I HOPPED OFF THE SCALE TODAY...AND IT STILL READ 230....NO LOSS SINCE LAST WEEK...YA THINK I WOULD BE HAPPY AT MY PROGRESS SO FAR?....NO DICE! YOU SEE, I AM THE WOMEN WHO HITS THE ELEVATOR BUTTON 20 TIMES,'CAUSE I AM SURE THAT WILL MAKE IT ARRIVE FASTER.....I AM THE ONE WHO HITS ENTER ON MY COMPUTER AT WORK 7 TIMES TO MAKE THE TRANSACTION GO FASTER...I AM THE CHICK WHO STANDS IN FRONT OF THE MICROWAVE AND YELLS"C'MON,HURRY!" IMPATIENCE PERSONIFIED!!!! I ALSO NEED TO LEARN THAT FIBER IS MY FRIEND...BUT THAT'S ANOTHER STORY
01/22/98
no loss to report....that would only be a positve statement if i was an insurance agent..... no loss is better than a gain.....the feeble attempt to cheer myself up is not working....
01/23/98
GOOD DAY DIET CHUMS! AT THE TONE THE TIME WILL BE...7:41 AM ...AND I HAVE ALREADY HAD A HUGE CHUNK OF MY CALORIE BUDGET FOR THE DAY! 500 TO BE EXACT, I HAVE BEEN CRAVING CHOCOLATE CHIP PANCAKES,SO I HAD THEM....AUNT FLO IS ON HER WAY TO TOWN...OTHER THAN TODAY I HAVE NOT HAD AN OVERWHELMING URGE TO DO THE CARB/CHOC. THING.....SO I AM BLAMING THE CRAVINGS ON AUNT FLO! ( A 31 YEAR OLD WOMEN REFERRING TO MENSTRUAL CYCLE AS AUNT FLO....WHAT'S WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE?} COME TO THINK OF IT WHY THE HELL DO I FEEL THE NEED TO SHARE THIS PART OF MY LIFE WITH HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE?????? GAWD! I BETTER CALL MY THERAPIST, I AM SURE BETWEEN THE TWO OF US WE CAN LINK ANY EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS I HAVE TO MY MOTHER! I AM KIDDING......SORTA! I WATCHED "THE COLOR PURPLE " LAST NIGHT,HAVEN'T SEEN IT IN YEARS,BOY,THAT'S A TWO HANKIE MOVIE! I SOBBED THRU THE WHOLE THING! THAT WHOOPI....LOVE HER! OPRAH WAS GOOD TOO! WELL....I'M DOING THE MARTHA STEWART THING TODAY,ALREADY HAVE THE LAUNDRY STARTED.....I GOT A BURST OF ENERGY THIS MORNING! SO I WILL TAKE ADVANTAGE WHILE IT LASTS. THAT REMINDS ME , I LOOKED OUT THE WINDOW THIS MORNING AND THE CHRISTMAS TREE ROLLED ACROSS THE STREET INTO MY NEIGHBORS YARD... LIKE A HUGE TUMBLEWEED......I MUST GO GET IT BEFORE MRS. KEESECKER LEAVES FOR WORK!
01/24/98 still no lss to report..i am so bummed.....i am going to start a water and exercise program...as reducing calories alone is not doing it.....live and learn!
01/25/98 BUMMED...DEPRESSED...IRRITATED...UPSET...DISCOURAGED.....ON A REAL DOWNER...{.HIDE THE RAZORBLADES AND OTHER SHARP OBJECTS}...IF I HAD A BEER I WOULD CRY IN IT!!......I AM ~STILL~ @ 230!!!!` IF YOU WERE LOOKING FOR A POSITIVE OR OTHERWISE INSPIRATIONAL MESSAGE TODAY...YOU ARE OUTTA LUCK.....
01/26/98 well...kiddies, today i am going to walk at least 60 minutes and i will drink 80 ounces of water.yesterday turned into an all day pity-party... a small private affair attended by all of my more negative personalities. seriously tho...today is a new day and a fresh start. ~~~ O.K. ......I DID IT!!! I WALKED ...AND GEEZ! I AM SO OUTTA SHAPE! BUT I DID IT!..... IT IS COLD ..AND MY LUNGS FELT KINDA FROZEN...SO I AM THINKING ABOUT THE GYM...OR AT LEAST AN EXERCISE VIDEO @ HOME,INSTEAD OF THE GREAT OUTDOORS....TALK TO YA TUESDAY!
1/27/98 we were @ martins the other night...me and the ol' man....who has lost 14 pounds more than me since WE started our journey into thinny-ville...{bastard!} THAT, TO ME IS NOT FAIR!! AFTER ALL,IT WAS MY IDEA ...I SHOULD BE THE LEADER! he looks great! and he knows the improvement is showing....like i was saying ...we are @ the grocery store,reading all the labels,deciding what is WORTH the calorie content,,,,and what we could do without...and a little girl,about 3 years old said "look mommy,he has a baby in his tummy!" while pointing at my husband......we laughed,as her remark was so innocent. Just when ya start to get comfy.....outta the mouths of babes! I assured him if the little girl would have happened upon us two months ago her statement would have been" look mommy,he has tripplets in his tummy!" well, i gotta split....i am going to stay on the plan today 100%
01/28/98 ok...did great yesterday....went to wal-mart to stock up on the sams' choice flavored water...walked thru the candy section...just for a visit. they had all my favorites in stock...i looked @ the calorie content ..and for three small pieces of my favorite candy it was 180 calories,and who can eat just three? a 12 serving bag would only last the afternoon for me...so i figure i saved myself 2,160 .......i thought about those 2,160 calories that i so bravely left at the store...all day yesterday.....i was so tempted to go back and get those bon-bons!
01/29/98 remember the penut butter bon-bon's? well, let's just say....i had a legitimate excuse for going back to wal-mart...had to return a scale that did not work properly.....and something overcame me.....i felt like a crack-head going to a crack-house.....i made the score and ate those bastard bon-bons all the way home!!!! well,here i am ...the day after,feeling guilty.but not feeling defeated...hey..i had a binge...i cannot change that...and today i will go right back on the program...before i would have continued on a binge for weeks and weeks.
01/30/98 colored my hair today.....all i wanted to do was "wash that grey right outta my hair" instead,i am now sporting a stunning mane of navy blue hair......i look like all the old italian ladies @ Our Lady Of Victory Bingo Night!!!!! "GAWD HELP ME!" rededicated myself to the program today.....i am going to stick to the slimfast.....i am going to weigh in sunday.i am not expecting a loss,as i went on a bon-bon binge....that led to an all out food -fest. .......
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